Just need to let off some steam and stress.

I feel like some of my friends who I used to be so close with are drifting away. We don't really talk anymore, and things are just...different. And not in a good way. It's breaking my heart. One, I used to call one of my best friends. I miss her. I miss talking to her. And the other, well, he's complicated. I used to know that I could tell him anything, and he'd listen and help me, and now I just get the feeling that he doesn't like me at all anymore. He seems annoyed with me all the time, and it's killing me inside. We used to be so close, but he never asks how I am, or anything. Never even talks to me unless I talk first. I'm just going to put some quotes down that I've been feeling. It helps.

Please just do me a favor. Promise me. Please promise that you'll never forget me, that I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had somewhat of an impact on your life. Please promise that you'll always remember me. Losing our friendship was hard enough but I don’t wanna go on knowing I meant nothing to you, that I was just one of those friends who passes you by. Promise that you'll always remember me.

We can't talk to each other like we used to. There are just some things we can't say.

You don’t think that I knew you well? Maybe I didn’t know the exact town you were born in or the time of day that you were born. Maybe I didn’t know the names of all your aunts and uncles and maybe I got some of the names of your old friends mixed up. But don’t try to tell me that I didn’t know you. I could see by the way you looked when I passed you in the hallway what kind of day you were having. When you answered your phone I could tell what you were doing or how much fun you were having. I knew when something was really wrong cuz your face lost its brightness and I knew when you just needed a friend cuz I could tell from the sound of your voice. Don't try to tell me I didn’t know you. I knew you more than everyone else. Don't say I forgot about you either cuz you know that you pushed me away.

I hope she’ll be a fool. That’s the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool.

Inspiration strikes at 11:10!

See? I'm already getting better at this. I've learned to love Sundays. Not because I'm all religious and get to go to church (I'm not, and I don't. But that's a discussion for another time.), but because that's when the Post Secret blog gets updated! And Desperate Housewives is on that night.

But truly, I love Post Secret.

It's such a creative idea, and I just adore how a random person can have an anonymous outlet to get something burdensome off of their chests.

I'm going to post ONE post secret postcard with each blog. It'll either be one that I'm relating to that day, or just one that I really like.

So, if anyone has any secrets to share, go for it. I don't judge, and you can enter your comments anonymously without even creating an account!

Have a safe and happy Thanksgiving, everyone. =]

Love, Kelsey

The first of many crooked days.

I'm a thinker.

It's just what I do. When I can't pay attention or I find my mind wandering, I daydream. I think. I wonder. I ponder. So this, I hope and suppose, will become my outlet. Since this is my first blog ever, and I'm only 17 (and a half), give or take three weeks, this first post might not be the best there ever was. But I'm going to try. In all honesty, I doubt anyone besides myself and maybe God will read this.

But that's good enough for me.

So let's see. I should probably put something...distinguishable here, right? Well, I'm Kelsey. Obviously. I'm 17 and a half-ish, and I'm a senior in high school. I procrastinate, I'm really smart, funny, and I'm building up a stockpile reserve of self esteem. I'm too outgoing sometimes, I sing a lot, I love music, and I obviously use the word I too much. I love cooking and eating and I never get full.

That's about it. It's 11:07 PM as I'm typing this.
I'm listening to Bundle Up by Forever the Sickest Kids.
The weather: Dark, freezing.
Current mood: Restless.

Bottom line, when something strikes me, I'll blog about it here. While this first post sucked major juice box, I'm a creative person. Watch me improve! =D

With love,
Kelsey